I've got less than 4 weeks left til my contract extension is over. Yesterday, we had a long staff meeting, during which the boss lady made another attempt at wooing me to stay. She was promising a better opportunity and flattering me with praises, interspersed with visions of how staying together would be a boon for the future. It all sounded good, but I've heard it all before. Besides, this working relationship is not working out for me at all.
Sure, the benefits sound good, and all the promises of you being taken care of once you start working make you feel safe and wanted. And for the first few days, it feels good to be a part of something. But then, you start to notice things being not quite what they seem, and little problems start to pop up. Sure you try to deny or rationalize why your calls aren't being returned or why your concerns seem left unresolved. You try your best to work things out, smoothing over any conflicts, sacrificing more and more of yourself. Then reality sets in, and you realize that you've been bitch slapped by the pimp one time too many, and you've woken from a pleasant dream to living in a nightmare. So what do you do?
Like any bad relationship, you've got to know when to stay and when to leave. I've realized that the boss lady, with all her smiles and platitudes, is really just struggling to please the upper management pimps and avoid getting a beat down, at least for another day. Well, I've had enough. I've met upper management, and I was not impressed. I can see now why this company has such a huge turnover rate and why it's losing to the competition. It's time for me to move on, and ply my trade elsewhere. Sure, it's been a lucrative deal, and I'm going to miss some of the guys and gals whom I've worked with side by side. I'm going to miss that incredible teamwork at pleasing our clients, even with the most bizarre requests. But if they can pay, well they can play. Though, lately it's been crazy taking care of so many clients, sometimes at the same time. I truly luved working with my peers. But, in the end, what's love got to do with it?
I've gotten what I needed and what I didn't want in this relationship. It's time to move on to bigger and better things. So, now, it's just a countdown to a well earned vacation. I'm not sure where I'll go after that, but that's all right; I like the adventure. I'm ready for a change. It's time to get back out there on my own, just me, myself, and I.
